..·.¸¸·´¯`·.¸¸.ஐ*~...ThaiChick_92...~*..·.¸¸·´¯`·.¸¸.ஐ

its so weird without you. you have no idea how much i miss you. i need you, i cant do this by myself.

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because its more than just that,

because no one will ever understand,

because im standing here alone.

why?how could you do this to me? how could you just leave me behind? it hurts so much, this betrayal of yours. you might have had a tear in the corner of your eye but you broke my heart. you left me without a goodbye. you left with a smile on your face so eager to get out. did you forget anything dearest? you didnt even fight for me, you just left. your just as bad as her who left us before. but this time its just me. im by myself. hurt, disappointed, depressed, betrayed, abandoned. you riped my heart out and stepped all over it. do you get a joy out of my sorrow? do you find this sickly entertaining? i always thought we would stick together, that we would always be there for each other, but i was wrong. you took your first ticket out of here and left me to be stuck in this hell hold by myself. i have one thing to ask you, are you happy now?

ive been through horrible things as well as great. i've experienced pain along with joy. but haven't we all? maybe the pain ive been through isn't half as bad as yours or maybe its a million times worse but it doesnt matter to me because i have the best friends in the world to help me through it. whether im bumbed out from getting yelled at like always or hyped up about a concert i know i can always share with my best friends and they'd feel exactly what i'm feeling and they go through it with me. when im down and feel like giving up they dont just lend me a hand they cry with me and share that moment with me and help me right back up to my feet. i trust them. i count on them. i believe in them. they make me believe in something beyond the clouds and make me smile until my face hurts and make me laugh till my stomach cant take it. i might be in a bad situation right now and i may not be happy, i may be depressed, i may want to give up in believing and having faith but one things for sure i cant be lucker to have the friends i have. without them i feel as if i wouldnt be here, like i couldnt take what im going through, and because of that i want them to know how much i appreciate them and how i love them. guys, i love you like brothers and sisters, family. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!

okay so i whine about life a lot...but i do love my life and i am determined to make something out of it no matter how hard or tormenting it is. i want something out of life and even if its only making one person smile then i can sleep at the end of the day happy and all my exhaustion wiped away :)

my life=shitty :\